trusting through the uncertainties...

So here are some pictures from our Axis trip to Ft. Worth.

These kids were SO much fun to work with!  I would love to teach these kids everyday.  I really feel like teaching is my spiritual gift and I would really love to become a teacher (which is so weird because I have NEVER wanted to stay in school...EVER!).  

Life is starting to become so complicated!  I have one last semester at Cal Baptist and then I'll graduate in May!  How insane is that??  

We found some old family videos tonight and watched them.  How on earth did I grow up so fast?  It was just yesterday that my dad and mom surprised us with a basketball hoop for Christmas (that was the best Christmas by the way)!  My biggest care then was if we were going to win our games that week!  

Now I'm trying to think about jobs and whether or not to go to seminary and where to go to seminary, where does the Lord want me to live...not to mention countless other really important decisions.  My emotions are unreliable and why is it that I sometimes care so much about what people think.  

Oh how I want to let the Lord do amazing things with my life and yet, when amazing things do happen, I get really scared.  The Lord has proven Himself so faithful in my life already and there is no reason why I need to worry.  Oh how I want to be faithful to the Lord by trusting Him completely with this part of my life.  

He is so worthy of a childlike faith and of my honest praise and of my unashamed love; of a holy life and of my sacrifice and of my unashamed love...

thanksgiving break begins...

(this pic is not from this texas trip but it was from a previous axis trip for a church from Denver)

So the axis trip was such a success.  The Lord used our team so diversely through the talents he has given us.  It was so amazing to watch the presentation come together with our creativity.  It was a pretty wealthy high school and jr. high so they were really into their music and iphones, but I know that the Lord did some amazing work!  

I was able to tell my story about soccer and how the Lord broke me and gave me new purpose for my life.  It was awesome.  There were a couple girls that came up to me afterward and thanked me for sharing my story.  One of the girls played soccer and is injured and there is no promise that she will be able to play again!  Another girl had just signed with a university to play basketball for them and she said that she really needed to hear that she shouldn't find purpose in basketball but in glorifying the Lord.  

It was a pretty big soccer school and so I became really good friends with both the guys and girls soccer team.  They were pretty awesome.  It was so much fun to be able to speak in their chapel and then to go to class with them, eat lunch with them, and I was even able to go to a soccer practice!  It was so much fun.  

Every time we present at a school it just confirms that I love being apart of students' lives.  I love spending time with them and teaching them.  This internship has been such a huge blessing.  I can't wait to see what the Lord has next!

Now, I'm waiting in the airport for my flight to leave from Denver.  My bag weighed exactly 50 lbs and the guy checking me in asked me if I did this often. haha  I told him that I was actually here last night! :)  Anyways, I'm flying into Sacramento where I will get to stay with my friend Bryce and his family until my parents come up and drive to get me tomorrow.  I'm so excited to be back in California!  I love Colorado but I miss my family.  I need a school break as well...although I do have to write a 5 page paper right now.  So I better go.:)  

axis in texas.

So we are off to Fort Worth Texas to do an axis presentation.  There are 6 team members on this trip including myself:

Rachel, Bri, Simon, Meghan, and David our Supervisor.  We are speaking to a bunch of high schoolers for 3 days.  We are super excited.  I will post more pictures later if we have internet access.  

Oh, and I guess I should explain what axis is, in case you don't know.  It is my practicum while I am at Focus on the Family.  We do a presentation on worldviews and use media clips to explain what worldviews are being portrayed in our country.  We use movies and music and explain what the lyrics mean and what messages they are sending/targeting their audiences and bring to light what the media is doing in our culture.  

Please pray for Simon.  He has a sprained ankle and just got the flu (which has been going around the institute...I haven't gotten it...yet).  Pray for our team and our supervisor and that we would be sensitive to the Holy Spirit as He leads us as we teach the students.  Also, please pray for the students hearts and that they would be so soft as truth is revealed and darkness is overcome by light!  Thank you!

i can't wait to go back!

I miss these days!  Good ol' CBU!  I can't wait to come back, especially with all that I have learned from being here in Colorado.  God is so good and He blows me away everyday!  He has allowed me to do so much and I am so thankful to be able to come back for one more semester! :)